haaannnnnout.

just got back from the Ell's. what the heck.. it was like gales after conf. all over again. Whaaaat the??
Got me excited. about life. about school. about people. about jesus. about family. about elevate. about the future. about everything really.
sanks Ell's. sanks Jesus. sanks the world - you are beautiful.

Jesus is a surprising fellow. He always gets ya when you least expect it. But i like that. Surprises. :)

i update my blog to much.

so i used to write little blogs slash thoughts etc to myself on my ipod. but some fool stole that and i'm too cool to write them down with a pen so as a result i write too many blogs. but thats cool. cause i dont really expect people to read them..

tonight was so beautiful. i have honestly never been as excited for an elevate service as i was tonight. and expectations were exceeded times a bazillion.
there's a few times in my life. where i've felt so in love with god. one was at camp. one was this one day when i was driving over the train bridge going into tawa. and one was tonight.
i had tears in my eyes tonight. it was beautiful. there was unity. there was family. there was jesus. life's amazing.
basically i just love life. mmmhmmm. sad i'm not going to relient k though. happy however that we have leaders meeting with ps. jurgen. so thats beautiful.
bedtime :)

why should we have to wait until someone has died to tell them how amazing they are.

Life.

today was rachels funeral. It was really sad but it was a beautiful service that celebrated her life.
i cant really comprehend death. my brain cant really get around the fact that
a. someone is gone.
and b. they're hanging with Jesus. like as in JESSSUUUUUUS!
the weather was nice. it was a beautiful service. the hangout afterwards was so beautiful. i went for a walk up in the belmont hills and had some sweet quiet time on the top of a hill looking over the hutt valley and the harbour with not a cloud in the sky. today was nice.

i think that Rach did truely know how much we and everyone else loved her. we say things we dont mean. we think things that aren't true. we're influenced by circumstances around us. but she was loved and she knows it. nobody can tell me different :)

i count it a blessing to be apart of a family of five. a family of five hundred. and a family of like over a billion. life is beautiful. people are beautiful. elevate is beautiful.
the end.

note to self.

after reading my last few blogs i have officially made a deal with my brain not to write blogs after like 1am because they just turn out as  pile of nonsense. sort of. had a beautiful night making very little sense and road tripping home from elevate.

see totally unrelated. good night.

blog.

i've done a lot of thinking over the past few weeks. it makes my head want to explode but it's good.
it's honestly been the craziest year. slash in particular the last few months.
there's honestly so much going on i dont even know what's happening. but it's a life to the full i guess.

• John 15:18. "If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first."
• Matthew 10:22 "All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved."
• John 16:33 "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
• 1 John 3:13 "Do not be surprised, my brothers, if the world hates you."

just typed a whole blog. need to work out what to keep to myself, what to share with the world and what to tell like one or two friends.

last night i spent like an hour on facebook talking about heaven with annalise. it got me mega excited. not in like a i want to die way. cause i definately dont. but in a its going to be so beautiful, cant wait to see jesus in real life, nothing will be sad, it's going to be honestly amazing kind of way. even if its stupid i like to think that i'll live in a tree house with an elevator inside the trunk, there'll be a waterfall, we'll have gadgets like off spy kids, i'll own a unicorn and i'll have ropeswings to get to the neighbours place.

life is beautiful. confusing and hard. but so worth it.