nerds.

nerd night was beaut. 

everyone actually dressed up and that made me very happy :)

in other news however... shmaalll freakout when i realised at 9.30pm the night before a 3 hour internal that i have no idea what we're doing and i left all my notes at school. I guess its a long prayer, and early night, and school at 7am to study. 

Thanks disorganisation gene. I hate you.

However this made me LOL. And I still love you life.

beach. sunset. Jesus :)

the beach. a beautiful sunset and Jesus go really well together. like marshmellows and chocolate in ambrosia.. or marmite and cheese in a toasted sandwhich. but even more so...

sometimes i honestly think that walks along the beach are the only thing that keep me sane.

but actually.

imagine if alice in wonderland was real.

sometimes i wish i could run away. not cause i dont enjoy life, cause i do very much. 

and not cause i dont want to be here, cause i definately do.

nor cause i want to be alone.

just cause i think it would be fun. a nice break. and the best type would be one where nobody actually noticed, time didnt pass. i just went on a beautiful adventure.

everything makes sense again.

these past weeks have been crazy. since camp i guess.

its like life has become like a bazillion times more beautiful. but they've totally become like a bazillion times harder.

jesus' eyes are crazy things.

its like everything becomes so amazing. but at the same time it hurts so much. revelation.

briana foote is a beautiful friend. i'd know that cause we've been friends for a good  11 days.

just when i was about to give up. wahahaha. perfect timing jesus :)

bedroom.

more than anything else, if i had money to spend i would DEFINATELY spend it on a beautiful bedroom.

but seriously. rooms are the only place that's only yours, that nobody else can just waltz in to, that you have control over.

i'm currrently trying to make my room look nicer. just cause i love bedrooms... i have very little space to work with and no money. its involving being creative and though i'm not getting far its slowly turning into my wee humble abode haha.

my perfect bedroom would be so so beautiful.
one day...

blank.

 sometimes i just sit here with a blank blog open for minutes. hours. okay not quite days... that would potentially be a bit dramatic.

I think it's crazy how good and bad just co-exist in the world. But how at one time it feels like one is totally beating the other, but then in a second it swaps around. Like i totally think good is winning at the mo.. but then if something huge happened, or someone close died, in a second its almost like everything that's good would just disintegrate. Or i dont get, how life can be so good when you're thinking about one thing, or having quality time. Then bam you remember someone, or someone tells you something and its like hellloooo. LOL and this is not in relation to my awkward public display of being way too tired last night.. Ha. funniest moment of my life. not actually. but still awkward. hashtaglifeishonestlysoweird

just realised that last paragraph made no sense. i often wonder what i'm doing taking english.. i'm actually going to fail. YAY :P

i'm excited :)

i have a lot to be excited about. it's beaut. tomorrow i'm having lunch with one of my favourites. then elevate all in. then chocolate fountain party!! today i went to rhi's house with anna and tash and we baked for saturday, it made me excited for that. on sunday i have the whole day to hang in town with fun people :).
i'm excited about clots this year. i'm excited about elevate this year. i am SO PUMPED about the hutt having their own service, like i cannot describe how excited i am about it!!

this photo honestly represent my life right now so beautifully. its been the craziest six months to say the least, but now that i'm almost at the top i am so excited about having a sweet ride. aka 2011. aka the rest of life. LOL imagine if life was sweet for the next 80 years.. wouldnt be complaining :)

wow. life is crazy. life is beaut. life is.. well life. :) i love it.

meaning of life.

today in RE we watched this 20 minute doco on this guy that asked like a zillion people what their personal meaning of life was. it was really interesting slash sad. and it truly got me thinking, out of like the 60 people he interviewed only one guy talked about getting people to heaven and one other mentioned God in a slightly less direct sense. the remaining 58 simply said they wanted to be happy, or just wanted to survive, or have fun. Which lets be honest we all want to do... but for them that was their whole purpose. It honestly just opened my eyes to how many people in the world are simply living without vision, without purpose, without any concept of anything but themselves.

Like for me, my life purpose is to become the person God's called me to be. It simply boils down to loving God, loving people and loving life. I think if you can do those three things with all your heart then everything else flows from that :). But honestly.. there are so many people in the world with no idea why they're on this planet. if only they knew...