humans.

today i spent a good 5 or 10 minutes just staring at this photo of me when i was like 2 or 3 years old. it just amazed me in so many different ways...

how it looked like me, but it it seemed completely different person.

how the brain that tells me every thought, and does everything for me is the same brain inside this little kid in the photo. and the heart that keeps me alive, is the same heart beating in her chest.

how our memories fade, i mean  i dont ever remember looking in a mirror and seeing a baby looking back at me.

i guess i just look at it, and see how much of life hadn't happened then, what i hadn't been through, what i hadn't learnt, what i hadn't experienced, just everything i am now, i wasn't then. like though it's me, its really not. and it got me excited about the future, imagine one day looking back at my 18 year old self and just saying, look how young i was, look what i hadn't done yet. i'm pumped.

babies amaze me. human life amazes me. the future is beautiful, and tomorrow could be the day that determines everything. wow. 

i think way too much.

life's awesome.
babies are cool.

smet gart.

oh my, so i've been thinking about a getsmart blog today. but i don't quite know what to write to be honest.

it was a beautiful week, its funny how much power is in the title of a conference. it was an amazing thing knowing walking into the start of getsmart knowing that i would encounter him in an unreal way, and knowing that i wouldn't be the same afterwards. not cause somebody had called it that cause it sounded cool, but because it was what God had placed on their hearts. in fact i remember thinking last year as i watched the promo for this year, that it would be an amazing week.

i remember on thursday night. just sitting there, with 23 of the awesomest people on the planet, in a room of thousands - so proud that i was from arise. Ps. John honestly was amazing, he's kinda like our church dad haha. it was cute.

oh man God is good. i love life. i love elevate, like so much. i am legitimately so so sad that i have to leave next year, but it will be good.

i am probably the weirdest person i know. not always, sleep deprivation does weird things to people. honestly.
that was the randomest three photos of getsmart. oh well. life's beaut.

well.

• I love Aimee Lennan an awful lot. she's very wise.
• it's time for a new list of secret favourites, i'm excited for this list, very excited!
• i love that even if you spend 23.5 hours doing absolutely nothing it can still feel like a productive day if you've gone for a run
• i legit love youth meetings. i've always been secretly mega gutted when they've been like GUESS WHAT? YOU GET A NIGHT OFF! i'm like what is this? i dont wanna hangout at home by myself.
• i need a break from people every now and then, but i think everyone does :)
• i think i'm tired, but i've been sleeping lots so i cant quite work out whether i truely am or not
• i think that i'm one of the most not-insecure people i know... however i bought Paul de Jongs book today and i feel that i'm about to be proven wrong... we shall see.
• getsmart is less than a week away, that makes me so excited
• God Is Able is a beautiful beautiful album
• i think the world has a messed up view of perfection
• i love the hutt so so much
• i'm pumped about Laura's dance concert tomorrow, oh man she's gonna be so good eeeeeeeep :)
• maybe i should plan to do no study tomorrow, then instead of procrastinating i could just enjoy life and have some sweet QT
• i love life. i really really do.

in hindsight.

i probably should have cut some points out instead of just talking double speed. oh well. :)
i love the hutt so much. so much like family i want to cry!
#hutt4life