set a fire down in my soul that i can't contain, that i can't control.

no matter how long we've been walking with him, for all of us there's still things in our life that we like to control. things that maybe at times we place above God, things that we're scared of surrendering to him & things that make us feel safe or comfortable.

how on fire for God somebody is can't be based on how high they lift their hands in worship, nor by how many times they've read the bible or how many verses they know off by heart. being truely on fire for God means surrendering everything, giving him control even when it's hard and scary.

camp

new years resolution of getting back into blogs is currently failing.

this coming week is going to be the one of the greatest weeks of my life.

i'm believing for futures to be revealed
i'm believing that strongholds will be broken... that depression, that eating disorders, that peoples past hurts, guilt will be broken off their lives
i'm believing that every person will encounter God, and fall more in more in love with him
i'm believing that girls will begin to understand their worth and realise that what he thinks of you is so much more than what the world can offer
i'm believing that every single person will legit have the funnest week ever
i'm believing that people will have dreams birthed, have life defining visions that will change everything
i'm believing that even the leaders and interns and everyone who actually makes camp happen, won't just watch lives change but will experience something themselves
i'm believing that more than ever chch, wellington and ham will become more like a family
i'm believing that young people will have moments with God that they will remember for the rest of their life
i'm believing for so much more, for a generation to take a stand and run after God with EVERYTHING.

i am so so so excited for camp, but i can't help but think that though for everyone else this is the start of something huge, for me camp is the end of what's been the most beautiful, greatest, funnest, most challenging season of my life. i'm still coming so so so expectant, and i'm still coming ridiculously pumped to see lifechange, but for everyone else this will define where elevate goes this year, for me this is just the most beautiful way i could ever imagine to say goodbye to something i have learned to love.

i was talking to Rhi tonight about me when i first started coming 3 and a half years ago, it was great. it's funny, because i was already a christian when i came. but i was just this quiet, angry kid that wasn't pumped about living in a new city and hanging out with new people.it's beyond amazing to think how much has changed in that space of time... i've gone from crying on my way into town cause i didn't want to go (funny story that...) , to legit having like a meltdown over the fact that i have to leave.

life is an adventure, and i definately am pumped about the next step. but right now i just can't stop thinking about what this week might hold. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.