blog.

i've done a lot of thinking over the past few weeks. it makes my head want to explode but it's good.
it's honestly been the craziest year. slash in particular the last few months.
there's honestly so much going on i dont even know what's happening. but it's a life to the full i guess.

• John 15:18. "If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first."
• Matthew 10:22 "All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved."
• John 16:33 "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
• 1 John 3:13 "Do not be surprised, my brothers, if the world hates you."

just typed a whole blog. need to work out what to keep to myself, what to share with the world and what to tell like one or two friends.

last night i spent like an hour on facebook talking about heaven with annalise. it got me mega excited. not in like a i want to die way. cause i definately dont. but in a its going to be so beautiful, cant wait to see jesus in real life, nothing will be sad, it's going to be honestly amazing kind of way. even if its stupid i like to think that i'll live in a tree house with an elevator inside the trunk, there'll be a waterfall, we'll have gadgets like off spy kids, i'll own a unicorn and i'll have ropeswings to get to the neighbours place.

life is beautiful. confusing and hard. but so worth it.

how can i be so on to it yet so out of it?

it's been a pretty bumpy week. but good. i think. 

i've realised...

• even if people have stopped coming. every single day i'm planting seeds whether i know it or not and they might well just start sprouting long after i'm out of the picture. just cause i don't see the glory of god in my time with people doesn't mean they won't. god's timing is something i dont understand but i enjoy it.
• i think my life was perfect without exception for about 9 months straight and i dont know how that is even possible. blessing flowed. i honestly saw heaps of friends come to elevate. had the best friends. good marks at school. life was honestly so beautiful. so i think when life went back to how it should be... hard but worth it. i didn't know what to do.
• naturally i just don't like telling people what's going on. but that doesn't mean i shouldn't.
• things don't actually blow over by themselves, they just appear to but are actually just pushed aside and almost without fail pop back up when it is least convenient. 
• i love people so much. is there such thing as too much? cause if there was i'd love them too much. however if the bible says to love people like jesus did then there is no too much. but definately a lot. it's beautiful, but sometimes i honestly wish i could care less.
• everyone actually has problems. which is such a simple thing that i didnt seem to understand properly. and then i find myself wishing i ordered the beautiful shell session at getsmart. typical.

John 15:18 has been on my heart lately... all i've got to work out now is whose thoughts are in my head. and you can hardly compare yourself to jesus if there's geniune reasons people don't like you. so if the world hates you all i gotsa work out is if there's reason or whether i'm just doing what's right.... but i guess it's been on my heart for a reason.

life is beautiful. that in all this nonsense can be such joy. such beauty. such peace. such love. such acceptance. all because of a saviour that died for me.

i really dont think he's an egg.

humpty dumpty sat on a wall
humpty dumpty had a great fall
all the kings horses and all the kings men
couldn't put humpty together again

it could have been anything. who's decide that humpty was an egg. he could have been a really hard jigsaw puzzle. cause if one of them fell off a wall it would be pretty hard to put back together.

like this.










or it could have been the magical blue moonstone from tinkerbell and the lost treasure. because she or any of the other fairies couldn't put that back together so i doubt the kings men and horses would be able to either.

it could have been anything. so yes it could have been an egg. but it could have just as easily been like a ceramic cat.

its quarter to two.

its the time. really late at night, where you should be sleeping. or studying... and you've run out of everything else you could possibly do. that means blog time...

i am yet to decide what this blog will be about. so it will just be a brief (or potentially not so brief) summary of EVERYTHING!!

• we're in the middle of mocks. i'm the worst studier in the world, best procrastinator however. BUT i actually studied tonight, for like 4 hours and only covered one of the 12 papers i have this week... AAAAAHHH
• piano exams done and dusted. waiting for results now FREAKING OUT. and i have no teacher now... she dissapeared to dunedin after my exam. literally got on the ferry like 20 minutes after.. so i'm chillin and not playing the piano.

• elevate. where do i flippin start?? it's amazing. we're huge, in like a depth/numbers/coolness factor. it's amazing, and we're only one week into high school blitz. no bigggie.
• life's uhhh interesting? but thats always good i guess. nobody likes a boring life..
• i moved rooms. its a mess. but i enjoy having the piano and drums in my room and DOUBLE BED. praising jesus for that right there.
• Luke moved home on wednesday. it's got its perks. but we have to do groceries like every second day so thats great.
• i just realised how LITTLE there is left of the year. its freaky. then i'm 7th form. then i'm out of school. forever. before i know it i'll be like... NOT A TEENAGER. i dont like the idea that one day i'm going to be old. but it makes me laugh thinking about it.

i think this will be me. in 60 years.

this blog is quite dissapointing really. just a load of nothing.

FAIL.

naaaaw well i'm publishing it anyway. maybe i'll write another one with meaning...

WHAT THE??

Conference was amazing.
I don't really know what to say...
I'm going to be a doctor. that took me by surprise, but i enjoy that i'm relying on God for that bad boy. not too stoked about not staying in wellington after next year... but i'll go wherever i'm called.

I cried on saturday night, when that letter was on the screen. Because i'd never understood how much 2000 people could do, and i realised that we're going to change the world at that moment.

I hate that it went so fast, like one minute it was thursday night then bam it was sunday night and i was in bed and i couldn't really believe what had happened between.

today i was at the MFC for artsplash rehearsal. i'm performing 5 times this week, meaning i'm at the MFC for 8 days in a row... that's crazy. conference dvds were still running on the tvs, there was little bits of conference everywhere. it was like being at home, but not. and if it wasn't for the fact that i've already seen it i'd be very excited about seeing the balcony of the MFC packed tomorrow night. but na... we've been there, and we all loved jesus so it was cooler :D


doctor... hmmm. i haven't even told anyone that yet. should probably get on to that. :D

LIFE.

wellington is beautiful. God is good.

So holidays are over. and i'm very sad, buts it's been a good break.
OPC was amazing. our group was like a family for the week. got to appreciate gods amazingness.
Then i bummed around for a week.
THEN I WENT TO CHRISTCHURCH FOR GETSMART!!
So its been a good 3 weeks really.

i thoroughly enjoyed christchurch for a number of reasons and i think this would be a perfect oppurtunity to use bullet points...

• The weather was freezing but amazing, which made for a beautiful trip
• Hanging out with CHCH elevate was cute
• There was a $2 Op Shop
• The beach was beautiful
• Getsmart was amazing
• James Murray was hilarious
• I thoroughly enjoyed staying with mollie, berni and briana and rachel swifts.
• I felt like a celebrity when that random man followed us for over 1/2 an hour filming us.
• I laughed a lot
• i also cried a bit too
• Fell in love with a new song

Basically it was just beautiful. however now the holidays are over but CONFERENCE IS IN LIKE 3 AND A HALF WEEKS!

so thats something to be excited about right there.

TROPO

elevate camp.

what the heck.

like it actually never seizes to amaze me how much more jesus has for me. I'm so excited for the future, like i think i'm there, or like think i'm as close as i can be to him. Then BAM jesus has another plan. 

so that's exciting.

camp was off the dile.

i like watching boys cry. it's cute.

ben prescott is legit.

expectations were exceeded. jesus is my best friend.

yesterday the weather was amazing, so i took a walk home with jesus. it took ages, but it was beautiful. i saw the sun rise and the sun set. that's a rarity. 

 conveniently i had my camera :D

life is good. jesus is better. i love the world. and i have no voice. all good proof of an amazing weekend :)

iloveblogging.

found this on weheartit today.

it made me lol.

lifes good. so very good. as it generally is.

this week we're submitting a proposal to the school council for a christian group.

im super excited.

annalises brother came to boost on friday. he's so cute. i was so happy. he loved it. :)

tomorrow we have a night off. im excited. im gonna sleeep. and play the piano all night long.

im so excited for june. its gonna be the best month i've had in my life.

4day weekend.

road trip with the girliieeees.

elevate camp.

my birthday.

OPC

then like beginning of july is holidays. which means GET SMART. and no school. and lots of jesus time.

my life is amazing.

dear bek burke, this is for you. hope you cant read it :)

ps. 'angle'

the end.

hooooooome.

im home.
lifes goood.
but kinda weird, and im a bit out of it.

today was a good day.
i went to church twice.
i ate european lollies.
i caught up with people and got lots of hugs.
annalise came over.
i hung out with jesus.

thats a perfect day.

weird how good home feels, and how excited i was for church. yonks more than schooool.
i have an amazing family. and its amazing to be home. i love my life. the end.

i thought it was time for a new blog seeing as its been like a month.
its no gonna be long though cause i have precisely 6minutes and 55 seconds.`So here goes...


Europes amazing but were stuck.
i love it and dont wanna leave but at the same time wanna come home
i can only take so much of this family business :)
im dying without elevate
i have missed 2 weeks of school and am not looking forward to catching up

yesterday i went to disneyland
i love disneyland. its just so happy and fun and amazing.

it snowed in ireland, but that was like 3 weeks ago. paris was boiling yesterday

i miss everyone heaps as
im missing the ball cause of this volcano :( but at least i have next year.

the cruise was super fantastic and flash.`we had super cool waiters, im pretty sure they loved us. there names were hector and alex. they were from honduras, i miss them.`
the only friends our family made on the cruise other than the people were on holiday with is some kiwis. ironic much??
we got 7 course meals everynight.

my fqvourite stops on the cruise were barcelona malta and rome.`
venice, cinque terre, paris and south ireland are my other favourite places. oh and pisa, the whole leaning tower and all.`

the keyboard over here are whack as, but ive mastered the art of them and i can finally type properly.
the internets free here. i like it alot :)

this morning for breakfast i simply ate a whole bagette.
the end