i can smell the freedom.

so i realised the problem. it's funny cause these last few weeks I've been reminded of real simple things, things that if i told someone i'd have some huge revalation and explained it they'd probably be like 'oh this is awkward i thought she'd been a christian her whole life' sort of things.

i thought that blessing had flowed for ages then just stopped. in hindsight, that is the most ridiculous thought in the entire world, but it's cause for so long he blessed with me with stuff that seemed impossible. but today when i came out of my chemistry exam, i realised that this whole time it never stopped. It was just more subtle so i was able to just pretend it was luck, like the fact that i've prayed for every exam - and finished every paper, and actually knew the answers. and the beauty that some of the people that have come to elevate have come so so so far, and changed so much. it was like seeing them saved was amazing, but after that the fact that they changed so much and fell in love with God so much, it was just expected or something ridiculous. and that last night we had our last family dinner for three months and my bruv prayed before he went to ghana, that he took a bible with him. that everything he does is for my good, just doesn't always feel like it.

i don't really think i need glasses, because i can't imagine seeing the world clearer than i do, like i've never really been to the optometrist. for all i know i could have terrible vision, but i just don't know anything better.
i think that's what it's like before you know Jesus, or before he opens your eyes to something. we live our lives, and we don't know any different. but he has so much more for us, we just have to go to the optometrist. LOL

after tomorrow i'm pretty much free. HI-FIVE. eeeeeeeeeee. its summer, in just over 12hours.
we find out in like 2 weeks about council.
oh and Briana Foote is probably the loveliest person i know. she's amazing. life's so beaut. thats all :)