a new level of joy.

love is amazing, it's impossible to even comprehend it. anyone who thinks they can fully fathom it, doesn't know God's love.
I can't even begin to explain how much i love God, how much i love the Hutt girls, how much i LOVE LIFE! and to think he loves me more that that, blows my mind.
looking back on the past two weeks, i can confidently say that they have been the best two weeks of my entire life... and i know it's only going up from here.

i had the most beautiful, funny, uplifting, best night ever tonight. i could legitimately not ask for better people in my life, and i pretty much low-key get teary every time i think about moving because i cant imagine doing life without them. it's fair to say at the end of elevate camp in January i will be a mess.

also thoroughly enjoy Keturah Parton. she's a laugh... :)

i legitimately don't even look forward to the weekend that much anymore, i look forward to a monday morning. i look forward to walking into school, and just hoping that when the bell goes at the end of that day, that somebody even just smiled because of me, that something i said or did made someone feel awesome, that even just one girl's life changed a little bit.
i've grown up believing that to whom much is given, much will be required. i have been given so much by God, so much joy, love, passion, hope, faith, excitement. now its time to give, give everything.

39 more days at school in my entire life. i have an awful lot to do in that time. it's time to change a generation, it's time for girls to know how much their worth, it's time.

it just keep getting better.

ha. i laugh at my last blog. cause since then life's gotteneven  better, i'm legit like Jesus that enough seriously!
but then again i'm totally not complaining! :)
heck yes house music!

i am ridiculously excited about the hutt
i am so excited about Chilton.
i'm so proud of our teenagers.
even if I got nothing from conference myself, it would seriously have not mattered. just being in a room with like 500 youth who were all pumped about changing the world, was the most amazing thing ever.
honestly, when one person stands up and goes against what everybody else is doing, thats awesome. But when 500 teenagers do that, the stereotype of a whole generation can be redefined.

seriously?

i legitimately remember clearly in my head as i wrote down my expectations for conference last week that it was semi-ridiculous to be asking God for so much, like was feeling guilty about being so demanding haha. there was easily like 10 things on my list, and i would have been stoked if just one of them happened.
Sure enough every single expectation i had for the weekend was exceeded times a billion. its a beautiful thing walking into a conference knowing that something's going to change. knowing that it's going to be our best conference yet. and just knowing that thousands of lives will be changed!

i dont think in my entire life i've been to a conference or a camp where every single session did something for me. especially not recently, i remember after summer camp being so filled up, and being so pumped about seeing other peoples lives changed but thinking to myself that maybe camps and conferences aren't that awesome anymore as a leader cause you generally dont have as much that needs changing in your life. sure enough passionate and getsmart came around and dont get me wrong, they were seriously amazing!! But more for what i saw in other peoples lives, than my own.

but honestly conference, how do i start. i can't haha. every session, like there were 10 of them. how my life can change in every one? i seriously do not know. i realised a lot in the weekend, a lot about me. a lot about God. a lot about his plans.

haha i was standing in the session in saturday morning, secretly wishing that it wasn't so clear in my head what i had to do (and loling cause im pretty sure Liss wrote something along those lines after gs) and legit crying, partially cause of jesus, but mainly just cause i was so scared. but happy-scared. but honestly im so pumped. pumped to loose everything, yet gain the whole world.

i lay in bed on sunday. couldn't sleep cause i was too happy. couldn't stop thinking about life cause it was so beautiful. couldn't believe that mum was giving me the day off cause i lost my voice in the praise pit. couldn't even think or imagine how life could get any better... then i woke up to snow. was so beautiful, yet gutted it wouldn't settle. then sure enough today, our whole house and the entire beach was covered in it. its the most beautiful thing in the world, God never seizes to amaze me. never. every night i go to bed thinking that life legitimately cannot get any better, then the next day comes around and God whips out something new. tomorrow school is closed, so i will hangout with the awesomest people in the world, watch movies, make snowmen and go tobogganing. seriously. conference. snow. more snow. so much snow i get the day off.

i love life so much. i legit can't even contain it. its a beautiful thing to be back to that place.

numerous times this week i have gone to write a blog, or at least thought of writing a pre-conference one. but i just dont know how to put my expectation into words, how to even start to explain how excited i am. honestly i know for a fact that this is going to be our best conference yet, that i will not be the same person next monday, that our nation will be changed. honestly. i cant handle it, ill be lucky if i can sleep tonight. im pumped for a beaut day tomorrow, breakfast with the orans girls, school for a bit, lunch with the orans girls, school for a bit, then CONFERENCE! seriously that is a beautiful day, and considering its been amazing weather for a good 10 days i bet it will be sunny. ijn. the sunrise was beautiful today, as much as i dont enjoy going to school at 7am for house music almost every day at the moment, i thoroughly enjoy watching the sunrise as i drive to school. life is pretty much awesome. Jesus is pretty LOL, love him so much. sometimes im semi-gutted walking into camps or conferences when life's already awesome, cause I decide before i even go that i wont have an awesome testimony coming from it cause i dont have a huge battle or huge illness or something that needs fixing. but if we start good, and know that God will move, imagine how we will be by saturday night.
potentially never been more excited in my entire life.
big call.