seriously?

i legitimately remember clearly in my head as i wrote down my expectations for conference last week that it was semi-ridiculous to be asking God for so much, like was feeling guilty about being so demanding haha. there was easily like 10 things on my list, and i would have been stoked if just one of them happened.
Sure enough every single expectation i had for the weekend was exceeded times a billion. its a beautiful thing walking into a conference knowing that something's going to change. knowing that it's going to be our best conference yet. and just knowing that thousands of lives will be changed!

i dont think in my entire life i've been to a conference or a camp where every single session did something for me. especially not recently, i remember after summer camp being so filled up, and being so pumped about seeing other peoples lives changed but thinking to myself that maybe camps and conferences aren't that awesome anymore as a leader cause you generally dont have as much that needs changing in your life. sure enough passionate and getsmart came around and dont get me wrong, they were seriously amazing!! But more for what i saw in other peoples lives, than my own.

but honestly conference, how do i start. i can't haha. every session, like there were 10 of them. how my life can change in every one? i seriously do not know. i realised a lot in the weekend, a lot about me. a lot about God. a lot about his plans.

haha i was standing in the session in saturday morning, secretly wishing that it wasn't so clear in my head what i had to do (and loling cause im pretty sure Liss wrote something along those lines after gs) and legit crying, partially cause of jesus, but mainly just cause i was so scared. but happy-scared. but honestly im so pumped. pumped to loose everything, yet gain the whole world.

i lay in bed on sunday. couldn't sleep cause i was too happy. couldn't stop thinking about life cause it was so beautiful. couldn't believe that mum was giving me the day off cause i lost my voice in the praise pit. couldn't even think or imagine how life could get any better... then i woke up to snow. was so beautiful, yet gutted it wouldn't settle. then sure enough today, our whole house and the entire beach was covered in it. its the most beautiful thing in the world, God never seizes to amaze me. never. every night i go to bed thinking that life legitimately cannot get any better, then the next day comes around and God whips out something new. tomorrow school is closed, so i will hangout with the awesomest people in the world, watch movies, make snowmen and go tobogganing. seriously. conference. snow. more snow. so much snow i get the day off.

i love life so much. i legit can't even contain it. its a beautiful thing to be back to that place.