psychingmyselfout.

thoughts are powerful.
i'm excited.
i think i low key over reacted, i'm nervous but pretty much just pumped.
life is awesome. 7 more days of school. tash comes home tomorrow. getsmart is ridiculously close. 2g on friday. church wide tonight. eeeeeeeeeep

ps. i totally have a bible crush on Moses. he's the man.

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one year.

oh my, it is a crazy thing how much can happen in one year, how much can change, how much can happen to you, how much you can grow, how much you can hurt, how much fun you can have, how many people you can meet, how many friendships can grow, how many people you can move on from. Basically a year is a long time.

LOLing at the fact that nobody from last years birthday party is coming to this years birthday shindig. thats psycho, like honestly just a testimony in itself of how crazy the past year has been, like a whole new set of friends. ive lost a lot of friends, i've made a lot of friends. i've failed a trillion times, but i've succeeded in stuff too. i've had some of the hardest days ever, but some of the awesomest memories in the world. i think thats life though.

as you getter older, life becomes better and harder and worse at the same time. it becomes more unpredictable, you have the best times ever, the funnest times of your lives, but as you grow up, and as you grow in God you learn a lot, and you find yourself going through stuff you really dont want to.

when you're a kid. life's easy, life's fun. But its kind of boring, you dont decide much, your parents do that.
I like growing up, but it definately comes with its challenges.

its crazy when you carry something around for so long how different it feels when you finally get rid of it. God gives us gifts, gives us things that he will use for good. But when we take what he's given us, and keep it, take control of it, and do what we want, or what we think is right. it messes a lot of things up.

"you have forgotten your first love... do the things you did at first"

at first you had no idea what you were doing. you were just so in love, you just gave him everything. you didn't know how to pray, how to be a 'good christian', how to counsel someone, or how to do anything. this scripture is beautiful beautiful beautiful. it doesn't say 'do the things you've learnt how to do', 'do the things everyone expects you to do', or 'do the things that you think are right'. it just says do the things you did at first, the one thing. and thats just Love God. everything else will follow 

life is awesome. legitamately so beautiful. freedom is a beautiful thing. giving it all back to him. eeeep :)
ps. bek burke is awesome

georgia.

georgia taggarts a hottie.
and pretty much the only person i know that reads my blogs every now and then.

(ps. never paid you back for this icecream!)

but seriously, i realised the other day how truely amazing she is. 

like so so amazing.

and so beautiful.

and so strong.

and the nicest person i know (tied with Anna Braczek haha)

and i dont say that lightly, all legitimate honest calls.

seriously girl, i love you so much. x

peer pressure is a funny thing. to be honest, i dont really care much at all about what other people think of me. but it really bugs me when people say stuff or do stuff to other people. it takes no courage, no bravery, no integrity, no strength to follow the crowd, but all of those things to stand up for what you believe in. to follow a crowd is one of the easiest things a man can do, to not do something even when others are, that should be respected right there.

little nugget of wisdom for ya.

revelationchaptertwoversetwo: i know your deeds, your hard work, your perseverance... you have perservered and endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary. Yet i hold this against you, you have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen!"

perseverance, is a hard thing. cause the thing about perserverance, is you don't really know how long you're going to have to perservere for a lot of the time. today i went for ANOTHER run. yes, two in two nights. it is a miracle haha, but thats the easy kind of perserverance, it's easy to keep running cause i know exactly how far it is till i get home again. but when you're holding out for something, waiting for breakthrough, hoping for someone to get better etc. a lot of the time we can keep running, but especially if we don't know how much longer we have to keep going for, we often forget why we were doing it in the first place. and when we lose that, we lose the purpose behind everything.

we had an awesome meeting tonight. i honestly love the people in my life so much :) i'm so proud to be a hutt girl, just cause the other hutt leaders are the coolest people on the planet and its honour to be amongst them.

first love.

i bought a book about smith wigglesworth trip to Wellington today. 

i'm pumped to read it, will be fab.

birthday next week.

scratchies, LOL. running against the grain.