in hindsight.

i probably should have cut some points out instead of just talking double speed. oh well. :)
i love the hutt so much. so much like family i want to cry!
#hutt4life

psychingmyselfout.

thoughts are powerful.
i'm excited.
i think i low key over reacted, i'm nervous but pretty much just pumped.
life is awesome. 7 more days of school. tash comes home tomorrow. getsmart is ridiculously close. 2g on friday. church wide tonight. eeeeeeeeeep

ps. i totally have a bible crush on Moses. he's the man.

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one year.

oh my, it is a crazy thing how much can happen in one year, how much can change, how much can happen to you, how much you can grow, how much you can hurt, how much fun you can have, how many people you can meet, how many friendships can grow, how many people you can move on from. Basically a year is a long time.

LOLing at the fact that nobody from last years birthday party is coming to this years birthday shindig. thats psycho, like honestly just a testimony in itself of how crazy the past year has been, like a whole new set of friends. ive lost a lot of friends, i've made a lot of friends. i've failed a trillion times, but i've succeeded in stuff too. i've had some of the hardest days ever, but some of the awesomest memories in the world. i think thats life though.

as you getter older, life becomes better and harder and worse at the same time. it becomes more unpredictable, you have the best times ever, the funnest times of your lives, but as you grow up, and as you grow in God you learn a lot, and you find yourself going through stuff you really dont want to.

when you're a kid. life's easy, life's fun. But its kind of boring, you dont decide much, your parents do that.
I like growing up, but it definately comes with its challenges.

its crazy when you carry something around for so long how different it feels when you finally get rid of it. God gives us gifts, gives us things that he will use for good. But when we take what he's given us, and keep it, take control of it, and do what we want, or what we think is right. it messes a lot of things up.

"you have forgotten your first love... do the things you did at first"

at first you had no idea what you were doing. you were just so in love, you just gave him everything. you didn't know how to pray, how to be a 'good christian', how to counsel someone, or how to do anything. this scripture is beautiful beautiful beautiful. it doesn't say 'do the things you've learnt how to do', 'do the things everyone expects you to do', or 'do the things that you think are right'. it just says do the things you did at first, the one thing. and thats just Love God. everything else will follow 

life is awesome. legitamately so beautiful. freedom is a beautiful thing. giving it all back to him. eeeep :)
ps. bek burke is awesome

georgia.

georgia taggarts a hottie.
and pretty much the only person i know that reads my blogs every now and then.

(ps. never paid you back for this icecream!)

but seriously, i realised the other day how truely amazing she is. 

like so so amazing.

and so beautiful.

and so strong.

and the nicest person i know (tied with Anna Braczek haha)

and i dont say that lightly, all legitimate honest calls.

seriously girl, i love you so much. x

peer pressure is a funny thing. to be honest, i dont really care much at all about what other people think of me. but it really bugs me when people say stuff or do stuff to other people. it takes no courage, no bravery, no integrity, no strength to follow the crowd, but all of those things to stand up for what you believe in. to follow a crowd is one of the easiest things a man can do, to not do something even when others are, that should be respected right there.

little nugget of wisdom for ya.

revelationchaptertwoversetwo: i know your deeds, your hard work, your perseverance... you have perservered and endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary. Yet i hold this against you, you have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen!"

perseverance, is a hard thing. cause the thing about perserverance, is you don't really know how long you're going to have to perservere for a lot of the time. today i went for ANOTHER run. yes, two in two nights. it is a miracle haha, but thats the easy kind of perserverance, it's easy to keep running cause i know exactly how far it is till i get home again. but when you're holding out for something, waiting for breakthrough, hoping for someone to get better etc. a lot of the time we can keep running, but especially if we don't know how much longer we have to keep going for, we often forget why we were doing it in the first place. and when we lose that, we lose the purpose behind everything.

we had an awesome meeting tonight. i honestly love the people in my life so much :) i'm so proud to be a hutt girl, just cause the other hutt leaders are the coolest people on the planet and its honour to be amongst them.

first love.

i bought a book about smith wigglesworth trip to Wellington today. 

i'm pumped to read it, will be fab.

birthday next week.

scratchies, LOL. running against the grain.

todaywasabeautifulday.

today was a truely beautiful day.

though i was so jealous that all the other schools had like only dancers, i was so stoked that ours didnt, because i would not have been there haha and it was beautiful.

i have the beautifulest friends in the whole world. i love them so much.

i was ridiculously stoked that we won the most supportive/nicest people award. people actually had to vote for that, woohoo. i realised that as much as i like to think i hate chilton, it is actually beautiful, the people are so amazing, we're actually like a giant family. its cute, i think i'm actually proud i'm from chilts, even if it pains me to say that :)

directors did a great job!

i wish we were placed so bad. they deserved that, but considering everything, we did flippin amazing

faithexceeded

41.
that is a beautiful number.
that is a number i will remember for a long time.
that is a number 5 times greater than last year. (LOL)
that is number that will only get bigger.
that is the number of people we had at our Christian Group launch today.

lifeisbeautiful.

emerge

waaah. so christian group launch is next week, it's crazy cause i'm a weird mix of
a. way not excited/have enough faith for it
b. so so excited about what this will be the beginning of and
c. freaking out cause me and annalise are preaching.

how are two people supposed to preach... we are yet to figure that one out haha, but we decided that MCing games and messages will all be done in pairs for the first few weeks cause we have no idea what we're doing. AH. JESUS help :)

WAH. but honestly, it was over a year ago that i finally had the guts (and unlaziness) to write the proposal for this flav, and now a year later it's happening. yes i'm aware that at  most schools it takes a week or two, we're weird. (to be fair we did start last year for 2 weeks and we had an average of 6 people a week WOOHOO)

but HONESTLY.
faith is rising... slowly. but steadily, and tuesday we'll be ready to go off with a bang.

life is crazy.
lots of facetime equals a beautiful beautiful day.
i love annalise gregan :)
i love Jesus
i love life.
:)

so excited.

if only...

i think an awful lot.

way too much, like i'm talking way way too much.

generally not much about actual life, but just about life the way i'd love it.

Imagine if everything we wanted happened, like i'm not talking about 'i want a sweet ipod' i'm talking like i so want this person to get better. if only this person knew jesus. if only church was so big it had to be at the stadium. if only they knew how loved they are. if only they didn't have to go through this alone etc... and then there's the'what if' thoughts... generally they're just ridiculous and stupid. Like what if we could read minds. what if chocolate was good for you and apples were bad.

my brains funny.

but its fun.

sorta.

we're totally called to change our 'if only's. what if's are fun. but pointless. but 'if only's are totally what God's calling us to become reality. 

imagine what would happen if you could take "i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" literally. i can do all things. what if God put "i can do some things through Christ who strengthens me". see 'what if' - just ridiculous and stupid. :P

i totally write blogs to myself.

ps. i know this probably makes no sense to everyone. i don't really care :)

irrelevant pictures. wahoo.