for example today when my grandpa started eating the wrapping paper from his present, i thought about how the concept of benjamin button isn't all that weird. i dont really like that idea of getting old, but in a way babies/children aren't that different from old people. they're both pretty weak and vulnerable, need other people to help them live. i guess you kind of are born and die in a similar state... slash really thats not legit cause i'm kinda refering to people with alzheimers. okay scrap that.
i woke up at 5 this morning, real pumped for my santa sack only to wake up and find it not at the end of my bed, turns out he put them under the christmas tree. whada a sneaky fella. went to church, it was adorable. had lots of food, an afternoon nap, and finished watching the first season of gossip girl (i know so holy and festive - dont judge)
Laura Boot is cool. she leant me this book, i think i'm going to have to read it again once i've finished, just cause its so well.. dense. and i cant really take it all in, maybe cause i cant fully comprehend God's love. i dont think any of us can, we limit God to things we know on earth in so many ways. it's pretty crazy really, but i enjoy the mystery that is Jesus. i dont think anyone will ever have christianity 'sorted'. i remember when i was younger, i used to look at leaders or pastors or just most christians, and wish that i could have it like them. in the entire world there are like a bazillion different twists on christianity. how can one person ever have it exactly correct without being all proud and up themself about their denomination. however i dont really believe that things like how old the hymns you sing are, or what version of the bible you read (within reason :D) actually are gonna make a difference in the end, its just Jesus.
God is just huge. point is although i'll grow in so many ways, i might not have christianity down. i'll never fully understand god's love or his hugeness, i dont think i'll do a lot of things. but thats because he is SO huge and SO great and SO many good things.. and nobodys perfect. and weren't born perfect, and we wont die perfect. we just gotta do our best to do whats right in between..
its late and i'm rambling. we're going white water rafting in the morning, i'm pumped.
Also getting so so so so so excited for 2011 in so many ways. i'm thinking sometime before school goes back i might just go on holiday with jesus for a couple of days. just us two, it'll be beaut.
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